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I don't really consider myself as anything else besides being a hobbyist. Enjoying what I want to do at the moment. Whether it be painting, cooking, writing, or taking photos.

Having varied passions makes almost everything fun. And I am driven by passion. To eat what I want, to travel, live life to the fullest, meet friends, see new things and appreciate what I have achieved so far.

I believe that we create our own heaven and hell. And it's true that we cannot change the world, nor the past, but we can channel our energies towards things, events and people that makes us happy.

Life is short, loss hurts, live and love while you can.

Cheers to all ! :)
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Journal Entry: Tue Feb 5, 2013, 2:27 AM
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Willy DeVille
  • Reading: Yu Hua's The Past and the Punishments
  • Watching: 2nd season of The Borgias later. :)
  • Playing: catch with my inner retard
  • Eating: nuthin' yet
  • Drinking: Purple Gatorade


We have long planned to move in together, my love and I. That dream is finally materializing this March. I have to leave again next week to help pack and ship some of my own things at our place there in Bangkok to here in Manila. Right now, I'm torn between feelings of sadness and of excitement. I'm sad because I will be an hour away from my mom. Not only me but also my son, who has so gotten used to being able to be with his grandmother and cousins almost all the time. But we promised to visit every weekend or whenever we can.

Excited because we are going to be a family. I like the idea of being domesticated again taking care of the people I love. Plus, I will finally be having my own kitchen again. That means no more cook or maids hovering over me while I cook. I like them but I don't like getting distracted. Also, I will be having more time and space to go back to doing my art. That's also something I'm looking forward to.

A lot of bad things had happened recently that had almost left me emotionally shattered. I'm thankful to have someone who loves me for me (even when I was being a bitchy cunt), without demands nor expectations.

Okay, enough gay shit. I just want to thank everyone who had sent me their condolences and comforting words. One wouldn't understand how powerful kind words are until one's in a place where it's all depressing darkness. I appreciate everything. Thank you.

I've read this poem so many years ago when I was still in college. I love that I found it online again for some reason.

Enjoy. :)

AFTER  A WHILE  (Veronica Shoftstall, 1971)

After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept
your defeats
with your head up
and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman,
not the grief of a child

And you learn to build
all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground
is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way
of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.

And you learn
that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...








Have a great week, friends! ♥


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nosugarjustanger Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2014
Where have you been? :huggle:
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Hazelnut8299 Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello, hun! Been busy for some time with moving and such. I hope you are doing well and in the best of health! Much love!!!
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nosugarjustanger Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014
At least you are back now. :giggle:

Hope the same for you too, busy girl!
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Imazza Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2013
Thanks for the fave ><
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IamETOH Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
more food! :eager:
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Hazelnut8299 Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes!
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Drac0ntias Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks to add me in your favs.
Dont hesitate to come see me again :)
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Hazelnut8299 Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course, my friend!
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RainbowDoggy123 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013
would you like to join my group? :iconfood-for-everyone:
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Hazelnut8299 Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course, I'd be honored to!
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RainbowDoggy123 Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2013
ok
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vw1956 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
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Hazelnut8299 Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:heart:
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vw1956 Featured By Owner May 28, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
:kiss:...
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BernadetteCross Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hello dearly, How ya doing sweetie? I hope everything is well with you & your love my dear Hazel..^^ Aww, Your new avatar picture is very beautiful & sweet smile my dear friend..Love it.:aww::hug:
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